Wednesday, December 08, 2004
hmm a snail without its shell, a person without a leg, a child without its parent, a bird without its nest.. its as gd as me without a home..i have 1 of cos..its used to be so close n noisy but now thanx to some ppl.. i dare not come home n i have to "sneak" in secretly.. esp aft training when i am so worn out and late.. i have to hang ard at my void deck then come home.. i am sad so sad..
y is all these happening to me.. wat did i really do wrong to deserve all these.. esp now tt everything bad seems to happen together.. i am prepared for the worst.. i pray hard.. but not hard enuff.. i try hard but not hard enuff.. double standard again.. i rem that i read b4 this book title daniel. its a v nice book which i learn a lot frm it. i read it when i was in sec 2 but the lesson tt i learnt frm it follow me thru til now..
it says that if u wan ppl to be nice to u, u got to be nice to others first. nv expect too much of a person n be contented for whoever u have now. the story is abt this boy named daniel was caught by some officers and in the prison, he helped others cos he wan ppl to help him if he ever need 1 day.. n his day came.. he sneak out of the prison to look for his long lost parent.. n the story begins here abt his run away n hiding frm officers n police..
i am seriously not prepared for sch to start.. it started so sudden.. i dunno wat i am thinking n gg thru rite now.. stress, tired, worn out, paranoid.. i dunno wat others words to describe..
come to think of it.. being a treasurer for almost a year. i really dunno how i fared.... gd or bad.. its not up to me to decide.. i tried my best to deliever the best i can for my members. im sorry if things screwed up here n there.. im sorry if my short temper ever hurt any1 of u.. im sorry if wat i did wasn to ur expectation.. i tried hard... trust me.. i fight hard for u all..
i thank every1 tt helped me along the way, lenny, james, bernard, ms leong, mr bern n mr gopi.. u guided me n teach me precious lesson tt i nv forget. i learn a lot being a com n at times i wanted to give up but.. i still hanging on..i break down i cry i whine i scream i throw my temper.... but aft all tt, i put myself together again to bring the best for magnum.. n cared for every1 tt i can.. ppl may worng me but i noe wat i am doing...
thanx every1 tt given me a chance to be magnum force tresurer...
hopefully the next tresurer wil do a better job then me.. n im sure u can do it.. no matter wat don give up.. unity is power..!! :)
long post.. haha.. thanx every1 tt read it.. cos im sure u all have been my guiding light...
loving it;;